NO MATTER WHAT

No matter how life looks on the outside– I choose every day to believe for and strive for more. Yet at the same time…I have peace and contentment in the here and now. I relieve myself of any pressures of perfection, whether from self or others, because I recognize the greatest gifts of life: being self aware, living every day purposefully, and becoming the self-actualized version of myself.

What self awareness looks like to me you ask? I know that I have to move with a level of assuredness to give my nervous system a break. I ground myself with activities that force me to live in the moment like dancing.. I realize that my worth is not based on Man but from God; and God gives a spirit of confidence and resilience. I used to struggle entirely with the opinions of those around me.. That fear of rejection from being seen and disliked for who I am at my essence held me back from living authentically for so long.. I know when I have fallen short to show up for myself: not living authentically to appease others is one of those moments.. I have been bullied out of my own experiences on many occasions because I was made out to be a villain for unspoken boundaries. Its silly thinking I was that way once upon a time: putting up with individuals who did not know how to communicate, how to handle conflict, and how to appreciate different personalities. I am with myself most of all and I have no complaints thus far. SOO many losses I considered losses back then only to realize it was never mine but theirs. I know how to communicate well, how to treat others with respect even when I am being disrespected; and I especially love how I handle conflict. I have peace over estranged relatives because I learned to prioritize myself and my peace through boundaries (same goes for friends/ relationships).

Truthfully– I’d love to discuss how I live every day purposefully and how I’m becoming the self actualized version of myself; but I am a work in progress.. I know that I don’t let a single day go by without doing something that brings me joy like blogging here. I know I am cultivating greatness in my life because my self belief, and self awareness grows with each passing year. I prove to myself just how disciplined and consistent I can be at achieving my goals and dreams every day and for now– that is enough for me.

Thanks for reading peaceofruta and I hope these prompts resonate with you and make you feel less alone. Remember.. you are always one decision away from a life changed for the better- forever.. ❤