Does this happen to anyone else?

I’ve noticed recently that if I don’t hear back from someone I’ve called for hours on end…(really 2 hours); I get this terrifying feeling and all the worst case scenarios start to play in my head.. it’s almost as if nothing other than knowing for certain this person is safe will make me feel better.. Or else I will go ballistic and have to find out / know that very second or moment in time. I’ll just start weeping as if the reality in which something terrible has happened is actually happening in real time.

I opened up to my dad about this earlier today since he was the last person that this specific situation happened. And he was surprised to say the least- not that my mind gets to harassing me in that way but just unaware that I understand the importance of getting back to others in a timely manner.. LOL my dad is honestly the funniest man I’ll ever know without even trying.. He reassured me and he was at work (safe af) at the time..

If you’re facing seasons that make you this way like me.. What helps you? I try to practice inhaling and exhaling in moments like these where my mind has created its own hell. You go through enough real life shit and trauma- – I guess it takes a while for it to flush out of your system.. I think I do have a genuine fear of losing those I deeply love and care for and my mother’s illness has only exacerbated that fear.

In more ways than I can count, I truly take life one day at a time and give myself grace because I know it’s not my fault and that this is hopefully something I go through temporarily until my mind has digested that things are good and not to anticipate any bad.